Just a big bundle of emotions right now. I guess the major one is worry. Guilt's chucked in there too along with frustration. Theres so much happening at the moment, and I don't know what to do about a single thing. In some situations, I just can't do anything and I know that. But with some other stuff thats happening, I know I could do something at least. And I'm feeling bad that I'm not doing anything. And that makes me angry. One thing I've been thinking about alot. Just one moment, and one sentence. Tears running down my face as I said something that I didn't think I'd ever share. That feeling. And I think it's changed everything..
One memory- laying, watching the silhouettes dance around, the dim light behind them making the movements seem less defined, as though the shapes were nothing of substance, just fragile souls that could be gone with a blink of an eye. I guess I didn't realise at that moment just how true it was.. I blinked and just like that, it was gone and the only thing that remained was the memory of it, vague as though it all could have just been a beautiful dream.
don't feel sad. i know it's hard not to but there are others that are less fortunate than us. i'm sure you'll feel better soon :)
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